current mood: worried
Well.. after seeing my friends go through it, I'll be headed down that road too.
Looks like we will be moving after all. papawolff and I are looking at March/April. We discussed it briefly on our honeymoon...and after finding out how creepy our landlord has been. It is time to go. Besides, our rent is like 1,300 a month. For a three bedroom in the city, it's really not that bad. However, considering the finances now.. its a bit much.
Especially that if we keep this place, I'll be lucky to stay home until he/she is 6-8 weeks old. I refuse to put our baby in daycare when they are that young.
So, we get a place with lower rent.. that will enable me to stay home maybe 3 months instead. 6 months ideally.. but I am not sure how realistic that is. Give us some time to get our feet under us hopefully.
I am still not sure where my job stands, or if I'll be here through my whole pregnancy. I haven't told my boss I am pregnant yet. (He travels alot, and when it comes to him.. I am chicken).
So many things up in the air.
I can deal with all of these things, but I am more concerned about bean. I want to make sure he/she is alright. I have an appointment with the new doctor on Monday, the 16th. Since I am seeing her for the first time, the nurses haven't told me what she plans to do.. but I hope she is more helpful than my evil bitchy OB.
I guess I am mainly concerned because I have been feeling some pressure in that area, and because I can't seem to really catch the peanuts heartbeat on our home doppler anymore. Sure, I can hear the blood flowing to the placenta. I can hear him/her kick in protest. But it's really hard to catch the heartbeat. I tried last night with no luck, but I heard the movement.. and the blood flow.
It seems the more time progresses, the harder it is to hear!
I am going to try one more time to hear tonight.