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OOOoooh, the weather outside is frightful..

December 1st, 2005 (08:48 am)

Wow. I am offically 12 weeks today! Yay!
By the time we get back from our honey moon, I'll be in there just enough to consider myself into the second trimester.

The bum part about taking our honeymoon right now, is that I am going to miss seeing our little bean on screen. Which means, no test for me on the 5th. Hopefully by the time we get back, we'll be able to hear the beans heartbeat through the doppler.. which I will probably order for Christmas. ;)

Strangely enough, when my morning sickness is supposed to be disappering (which I save for like 4-5 days I never had bad). I am starting to feel pretty sick in the mornings. And yesterday I thought for sure I was gonna toss my cookies.
My breast are also *way sore, almost like they were in the beginning.

I have no idea what gives. This is suppose to be approaching the "magickal" second trimester. Of feeling good, having nookie, and much energy.

I am starting to think this is all a ruse.

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November 4th, 2005 (09:29 am)


yesterday was our first pre-natal/sono appointment!! I was a bundle of nerves all day long, even though I left work around noon. As we drove down into the city and north western, my heart started beating faster. This was it..

There is nothing you can do to be prepped, nothing you can tell yourself to calm yourself down with the first ever ultrasound. Especially when your doctor surprises you not by doing it by your belly. But using the dildo wand in ye old private parts.

Luckly, she let me insert it myself.. all she did was move it all around. As if she was conducting a great symphony now and again.
" la la laaaa!! opps! Sorry, did that hurt?"

When she first started to move it around, we didn't see anything. Then we saw the big black circle.. but there was nothing in it. My heart dropped. Two seconds later, she moved it a little to the left and there was our baby.

Matt and I could only stare in wonder. We watched its little heart beat. Two seconds later, we heard its little heart beat.
thump, thump, thump.

This is really for real. The baby is measuring spot on, exact with my due date. Thats what they get for not believing me. :)

The rest of the visit was completely horrible, and I dont really want to revist it. I will be switching doctors soon, which suits me fine now that I know what I can be up against.
The whole time I was holding onto that picture, looking down on it.. just in awe.

Matt couldnt believe it either.

I go back the day after thanksgiving for blood work, then for another ultrasound. All of which will not be at this doctors office, but upstairs.

so yah!

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First touch of morning sickness

October 27th, 2005 (03:43 pm)

At 10:30am this morning, I did my first near-hug of the porclien god today.

Infact, I ran with all I had to the bathroom, sure that was going to be it. I started pacing, trying to get cool. I did everything that I could. Took off my hoodie. Paced. Thought of the easter bunnie. Nope, I was gonna barf.

I couldn't figure out what was making me feel this way. I wasnt smelling anything and I had eaten awhile ago.
I ended up on instict lowering my head to get cold water in my mouth, and that is what did it.
I felt relief.

I was so worried I was going to toss my cookies and end up hurting the baby, I was willing myself not to. And I didn't.

When I got back to my desk I found my culprit. The left over taste of caffine free pepsi.

I've got my first touch of morning sickness at 7wks *exactly*.


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October 25th, 2005 (11:55 am)

Hard to believe in just two more days I'll be 7 weeks pregnant! Wow! where does the time go?

On the other hand..

My boobs hurt something awful. Just accidently turning the wrong way into the wind makes me go "ouch".

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October 20th, 2005 (05:30 pm)

Looking at my user info page.. it's hard to believe we've know we're pregnant for over 18 days! Wow!

Lets update. New symptoms. Ah yes. Boobs. The only body part I've always had a love/hate relationship with. A little bit of background.
My family? Woman are all large chested. We are talking the smallest girl is a C! Me? Not so much. When I was 15 when I started my cycle I was so excited. I knew they were coming. I wouldn't get made fun of for my chest anymore!I'd have big boobs, which I'd use to make boys make more idiots out of themselves. And make girls who made fun of me a year ago for being flat, be jealous.
My mom promised me, they'd come in by the summer.
Then, the next. Then the next.
When I was 20, I gave it up as a lost cause. Thinking I'd need to live with my size A boobs forever. They'd completely dissaper when I'd lay down.

But as I started gaining more weight, the bigger they got. Not huge. But at least a cup size, and that was alright for me. I could finally stand to look at em, unfortunately it wasn't true for the rest of my body.

So now they are sore. So very sore. Yesterday they lightly started throbbing, and today? Eouch! You'd think this means I am on my way to being a pregnant Chesty La France. But alas dear readers, it is simply not so. They are just sore. And not getting bigger. Which I am finally okay with. However, at the rate my stomach is growing.. I need my boobs to catch up!

I am grateful for the soreness though, because I know that I am not dreaming this whole thing.

Now let's talk about something else.

This extra saliva type of thing.

When woman mention pregnancy.. you get your heart burn. Your cravings. And your morning sickness.

These are the things they *dont* tell you.

Yes, Drooling. Don't think that fits in? Well it does! Some woman (I myself) get it. They have no idea what causes it. They just know that we produce extra saliva which can be worse when talking. And makes you feel like you are on the edge of drooling on yourself.
I am constantly wipping at my mouth while talking.
Yes. It's funny, and you can laugh.

And the congestion. Every morning when I get up, I need to blow my nose. Which is not a sign of a cold, as it is pregnancy.
Becha didn't know that, did ya?!

I am very happy to have this. I'd be plenty freaked if I didn't.

I am offically 6weeks today! Woohoo!

A milestone.

I am getting way attached to our little boo (thats what we are calling him/her.. and I don't care if it's "cutesy"). I don't care if I am really miserable. Just as long as he/she is okay in the end.

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Acid Reflux take 2

October 8th, 2005 (01:42 am)

So... being a girl of the curvy size who's had her share of heartburn the past couple of years, you'd think that I know not to drink soda before bed. Not even a smidge. Not even a couple of sips to ease that craving for liquid mid sleep.
Oh yeah.

Well, I did. I only take sips of M's now and then, and that is exactly what I did.. and it was enough not only to wake me from a solid sleep. But keep me up 2 extra hours.

I am disheartened to find pickle juice which worked for me so well before, no longer works. After about a half hour, after getting paranoid about getting sick.. still tasting my beloved, but non working veggie.. I went for it. Drinking ALOT of milk to calm the burn.
It's mostly gone.
However, now my nose is both running and stuffy.

There is no way I am going in to work tomorrow.

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October 3rd, 2005 (03:29 am)


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September 29th, 2005 (11:43 pm)

Dear Brain,

Inspite of what you think, no one on this planet thinks that you can't count. For instance, we know that 7+5=12(5 days till testing). So will you please stop thinking about it? We get it!
It's so simple, even the asshole can figure it out!

And while you are causing the mouth to twitch, you also cause the hands to manhandle the eyes by rubbing them in aggegitation. Because as we know, the eyes are *your* windows. The eyes don't like being treated that way.. it causes them to get red, and watery. They are threatening to sue, or at least cause enough back up to feel it all the way through the nose.

And do us a favor? Stop trying to make the eyes cry by watching the lifetime channel!!

It also may be mentioned the uterus has heard of your plans, and is not happy with you at all. When where you planning on consulting the rest of the ladies in the reproductive system?? I am sure as you've noticed the twitchy pains the past couple of days, well. That's what you get.
Also, we resent you dumping horomones into our very clean bloodstream.

You must know this only leads to *head slap*, and *head desk*. Which can only harm you. its not funny.

We try hard to keep our bloodstream balanced and sane, and lately.. we've had to upload on ALOT of chocolate to balance it out.
The waist line is plotting your demise because of this, as we speak.

In short, we are going to sign off now. This is your warning to behave.'

The management
a.k.a. the rest of your body

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Captains Log, 6DPO

September 28th, 2005 (10:00 pm)

*head desk, head desk, head desk*

It's offical. This 2WW sucks.

I don't think I've ever been this anxious in my life. I am boarding on OCD like behaviors, concerning my BBT themomitor. Trying to see if I can get an idea of a reading ahead of time. I am dreaming about it now, and sometimes when I think it's morning.. I'll grab at it half asleep/half awake. Only to wake up slightly, grumble empty handed and turn right back over.

Surely, if my BBT Therm had legs, it would have ran away out of my reach by now. And I'd be trying to persuade it out from under my bed for hours, with either the nearest piece of chocolate. Or another sexier BBT.

I wanna blame this on FF, but it's not FF's fault. They have a "temp" adjuster. So sometimes I'll take my temp around 10pm, write down the reading and see what FF says to adjust. So far it's been off from .02, to .1. Big difference.
But I know if I take it.. and it's 99. something, my temp tomorrow will be in the 80's.
So it does prepare me somewhat, but it also takes away the complete joy, or the complete sadness of just finding out the next day.

I keep going back and forth. I look at my chart.. "it looks good" "no, one big temp drop and I am totally done."

I dont feel pregnant either. Which doesnt mean much if you remember last month, when I did.. and AF came with all her baggage.

M is so excited. He thinks this is it.. and I dont know what to tell him. Try not to hope. He knows that already. I've told him my fears, we could be at this for alot longer than already.
It all looks good on paper, but that doesn't mean anything. The percent is low for couples who try for a year without help.. This makes 2 months, of which there are 10 more to go.

On one hand, since we have a wedding coming up.. if it didn't work out this cycle, that would be fine. I keep trying to tell myself it's probably better that way. But I am just heart sick thinking that it has to be that way. I'd rather give up everything to be pg, then be able to be "free" for my social engagements.

I am driving myself nuts. I have been ever since the predicitor changed from "good" to "high" .


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CD16, 4 DPO ;)

September 26th, 2005 (10:26 am)

current mood: curious

First, I was right. I did O! Woot!
I was also a *bad* girl, and let my paid FF account run out. So if this cycle doesn't work, I will need to purchase some more time. So I can see the days FF predicts O', and I get those cute little hearts on my calendar when we BD.

This is my chart.. http://www.fertilityfriend.com/home/12fb1.

The rise is good, but I did dip this morning.

For fun, I took my temp late last night and had FF predict what it was going to be.. which was right by my coverline. Luckily enough, I took it this morning (so I could see how accurate) and it was higher.
However, it's still a dip..

Should I be concerned?

I know the only way is to wait it out, but I am really wondering if this isnt a slight indication of whichever result it is going to be.